We get two cups of food per child. We are hungry but we will not go back home because there is still Boko Haram there. What I see is that if there is no Boko Haram, we go back home. Since there is Boko Haram we have no choice but to stay here and suffer.
I am 30 years old and I have three children. I only came here because of Boko Haram. We were living in peace, doing our farming activities, harvesting and bringing it home to eat with our children. Then Boko Haram came and took over the town.
About 20 to 30 people died. The soldiers killed some of them because Boko Haram was not there when they went there. They also brought some people alive to Rann.
Then we went to stay at Rann. The food they brought was too small for us and our children. If you choose to farm, you stay there to survive. If you don’t, you come here. So I came to Maiduguri after 40 days.
I came here alone. My ex-husband and I separated even before I came here. I remarried when I got here.
We later found some men that were missing. At first, the National Emergency Management Agency (NEMA) was giving us food here. For every child; one measure, and so on, depending on the number of children one has. Later they reduced it to half measure and now to two cups per child.
To feed now, we go to the bush to gather firewood when it is safe. Sometimes, we get food from our neighbours and if we don’t get it, we sleep like that. We want to go back home but we can’t if Boko Haram is still there.
(Additional reporting by Fatima Bukar and Yakura Kumshe)
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